It’s been a while, guys. Thank you for waiting around. I haven’t given my tumblr a walkabout for quite a whole so this is fresh from my heart and soul.
I’m not a believer in “everything happens for a reason”, but what I do believe is that if a major event happens in someone’s life, it had to happen. Sometimes the reason is not obvious but it’s there, unexplained. What I’m saying is that things happen and they shape you, sometimes they dent you and sometimes they even break you. People come and go, relationships form and dissolve, love burns and fades - everyday this is apparent in the world. However, I am one of the lucky few who have seen the start of something beautiful and cannot see the end, just unpredictable twists and turns which create a huge wave of positive emotion.
If you didn’t know already (let’s be honest you did) I’m going to be a father. Me and the love of my life are on a journey together and we are so fucking happy with where we’re heading. That’s all that matters. I’m 100% fully aware that of course there have been detractors and critics, ugly judgmental people who have made remarks, jokes, indignant and boring comments about my life. I know who they are, and I don’t care. Just because someone else is unhappy with their pathetic, directionless life why should I be too? Just because they are opposed to me as a person, why do they feel that they are able to make comments about an innocent life of whom they know very little, if not nothing? If you’re not ready for an event like this in your life, why can’t I be? How do you know that I am not absolutely perfect for this?
My ears have been burning on this topic for a while, congratulations have been limited. But those who have given them are absolutely appreciated and important people in my life, and I truly love them dearly. I have great friends and the best family I could ever wish for, so judgement from people I haven’t cared about for about 4/5 years are beyond irrelevant. What hurts me most is that people think their judgement, thoughts and basically their blessing should even be considered. You have my sympathy. More hurt came when a few people asked me if I was happy because of my age before they even hinted at congratulations! I feel sorry for you, I’m not throwing my life away, I’m doing something amazing - where the hell are you?
I’m back Tumblr. I hope you’re all okay, I sure am!
I feel like I’m on hiatus. I’m sure I’m at that point in life where it all starts to work out. Surely.
Interestingly, I have not smoked or drank beer for probably about 6 months now. I feel like I’d immediately get lung cancer if I smoked again it’s been so long, and I’d have to sign up for an AA support group if beer entered my system. I don’t even know why I haven’t done these things for so long. Not like I need them.
I forgot if this post was supposed to be read positively or negatively.
you know what i sURE DO WITH SAMUEL FUCKING SWEEK STILL MADE MUSIC BC I LOVED IT HES TALENTED AND IDK WHAT HAPPENED WHATEVER I STILL HAVE ALL YOUR MUSIC ON MY COMPUTER JUNEAU IS STILL MY JAM WHAT E V E R SWEEK
I’ll accept this as sleep-deprivation fan mail, thanks. Don’t worry I do still but it’s all very secret and I’m very particular with stuff because I am a perfectionist. It’s all very good though. My #1 fan always!
Today I was thinking about the best things about 2013, I’ll probably make a more full list soon but here are some points:
- First I must start with meeting the most amazing and beautiful person I could ever wish to meet, someone who I want to be with for a very long time. I know I’ve only actually known her for six months and I know I said I wouldn’t say too much on my blog, but I am a very lucky guy to have her. 8 billion people in the world and I am the 1 person to have that girl. I am blessed.
- The fact Fall Out Boy came off hiatus at last. I had given up belief on it happening and then it happened. Sometimes that happens, but it shows you that anything is possible no matter how far away you think it is from being a reality. Save Rock and Roll has already flown up their as being one of my all time favourite albums, at first I thought it was mainly relief and nostalgia, but I was wrong. It is a true masterpiece. I’d love to also point out that this year I actually met FOB at Reading Festival and saw them live. A real highlight of my life to date.
- As ever, Reading Festival was a reason to get excited and as ever lived up to my own hype. A moment that shines through is watching Jake Bugg play ‘Two Fingers’ in the NME tent, such a great atmosphere. Green Day, Biffy Clyro, System of a Down. My amazing friends and great memories made. Here’s to many festivals in the future, guys!
- Music in 2013 has been to a very high standard (obviously not everything, but I mean the stuff I listen to - fuck your charts), this year we saw albums from FOB, Jake Bugg, Panic! At The Disco, Paramore, Lady Gaga and even Butch Walker released an EP! And converts too, this year I saw Muse twice, Green Day twice, Paramore, Panic! At The Disco, Queens of the Stone Age and I’m seeing Hanson on Sunday - as well as all the artists I saw at Reading Festival and whoever I may have forgotten to list. It’s not about awards, record sales or popularity, it’s about making something you believe in and enjoy and 2013 has proved this.
I’ll continue this at some point but I need coffee right now. XOXO.