It’s been a while, guys. Thank you for waiting around. I haven’t given my tumblr a walkabout for quite a whole so this is fresh from my heart and soul.
I’m not a believer in “everything happens for a reason”, but what I do believe is that if a major event happens in someone’s life, it had to happen. Sometimes the reason is not obvious but it’s there, unexplained. What I’m saying is that things happen and they shape you, sometimes they dent you and sometimes they even break you. People come and go, relationships form and dissolve, love burns and fades - everyday this is apparent in the world. However, I am one of the lucky few who have seen the start of something beautiful and cannot see the end, just unpredictable twists and turns which create a huge wave of positive emotion.
If you didn’t know already (let’s be honest you did) I’m going to be a father. Me and the love of my life are on a journey together and we are so fucking happy with where we’re heading. That’s all that matters. I’m 100% fully aware that of course there have been detractors and critics, ugly judgmental people who have made remarks, jokes, indignant and boring comments about my life. I know who they are, and I don’t care. Just because someone else is unhappy with their pathetic, directionless life why should I be too? Just because they are opposed to me as a person, why do they feel that they are able to make comments about an innocent life of whom they know very little, if not nothing? If you’re not ready for an event like this in your life, why can’t I be? How do you know that I am not absolutely perfect for this?
My ears have been burning on this topic for a while, congratulations have been limited. But those who have given them are absolutely appreciated and important people in my life, and I truly love them dearly. I have great friends and the best family I could ever wish for, so judgement from people I haven’t cared about for about 4/5 years are beyond irrelevant. What hurts me most is that people think their judgement, thoughts and basically their blessing should even be considered. You have my sympathy. More hurt came when a few people asked me if I was happy because of my age before they even hinted at congratulations! I feel sorry for you, I’m not throwing my life away, I’m doing something amazing - where the hell are you?
I’m back Tumblr. I hope you’re all okay, I sure am!
I feel like I’m on hiatus. I’m sure I’m at that point in life where it all starts to work out. Surely.
Interestingly, I have not smoked or drank beer for probably about 6 months now. I feel like I’d immediately get lung cancer if I smoked again it’s been so long, and I’d have to sign up for an AA support group if beer entered my system. I don’t even know why I haven’t done these things for so long. Not like I need them.
I forgot if this post was supposed to be read positively or negatively.
you know what i sURE DO WITH SAMUEL FUCKING SWEEK STILL MADE MUSIC BC I LOVED IT HES TALENTED AND IDK WHAT HAPPENED WHATEVER I STILL HAVE ALL YOUR MUSIC ON MY COMPUTER JUNEAU IS STILL MY JAM WHAT E V E R SWEEK
I’ll accept this as sleep-deprivation fan mail, thanks. Don’t worry I do still but it’s all very secret and I’m very particular with stuff because I am a perfectionist. It’s all very good though. My #1 fan always!